I masculine, fragile, hard and strong, dark skin, inner core of blue.
With silk in my voice, how I contradict thee.
Raised with roots, there is growth in the dark,
Blackberries trodden by my ancestors, the gift from Horus is my inner sight.
Ra, absorbent mahogany, I seek you in the Nile’s reflection.
I feminine, beautiful, resilient and soft dark skin, inner core of blue.
With fire in my eyes, how I contradict thee.
Blossomed in the light, there is truth in the dawn.
Melanin rich skin protects me, the gift from Nut is my inner blue.
Ra, absorbent mahogany, I seek you too in the Nile’s reflection.
Inspired by Angel, this project explores intersectionality, gender and misogynoir. As I arrive at the beginning of exploring agency, and what it means to inhabit our bodies, I could not ignore my dearest Angel and their journey that inspires me to live in my vessel authentically. While constantly being seen through the gaze of a cis (cisgender?), white, heteronormative dominated world, knowing Angel but never seeing Angel before this project and what it means to have to contend with the body we inhabit because of the constructs of gender norms has transformed my life. Angel is powerful, poetic in every sense and deserves to be seen without labels in agency. Greatly loved and admired, the poem above is fitting, the title Hatshepsut, was the only single woman and arguably most successful Pharaoh who ruled Ancient Kemet, bringing trade, architecture and abundance to the kingdom. It is said that Hatshepsut adorned herself in male attire during her rule and many sculptures craved of Hatshepsut have no distinctive gender. “My experience as a black, gay police officer helped when dealing with victims of crime who were of the BAME LGBTQ as I was relative to them and many times, we shared the same experiences. I could come from a place of empathy, understanding and learning for both my personal and professional perspective. I think my gayness and my colour, especially in this time of what is happening in society with inequality, systematic racism and so much more issues, is needed, not to be the organisation token gay, black woman but a person who can offer perspective, insight and my personal and professional experiences.” Angel 2020