Anon x Reuben – Father, Father

Father, father in the mirror
Boy to man is a painful change
The ghosts sneer me, beside a whisper
Snide and mean and full of fear

Back away, back away to my mind’s eye
I’m pushing hard to find my voice

Day by day give me a reason
Am I left with any choice?
Then one day I shaved my face for the first time
In the mirror staring back at me I see father
And those red eyes, retro silhouettes I see

If I seek peace or quiet of mind
Just who on earth must I forgive
Is it those who raped and stole from me
Well then I pledge to not relive
To not relive

The hurt and anger, lust and longing
Leave my home, Leave my heart
With a phantom father, Is in my party
God Almighty wants my part

Fucking forgive my blues the target
Wheres that peace to make me whole
Tired of this thick rage and plunder
Where’s the tonic for my soul

Forgive my father, And his father
Let the dead forgive the dead
Forgive, accept myself today
Peace will find me innocent, innocent